"PURE-T STRESS"

I've been sick for two days.  Sick in the bed, sick.  Though no fevers, no coughs, or colds, or anything like that.  Just pure-T "STRESS".   It made me weak, it made me anxious, it made my skin feel like it was crawly, I didn't feel much like eating.  I couldn't concentrate, I couldn't talk really well, without stammering and just unable to get out the words at times. I felt really nervous.  It made me not want to get dressed, or take a shower, or do much of anything at all.  I drank my coffee, not much could make not want to do that.  But even though I had my amount of caffeine I felt like my mind was foggy, I couldn't keep focused. I kinda felt like I wanted to scream. I wanted to cry, but couldn't.  I felt like my chest was tight, and it was hard to breathe.  I just felt almost sick to my stomach, but not really queasy.  I just totally felt very uneasy.  I've been having some mild dizziness, but for two days that even seemed to be worse.  I could have cared less if did anything for those two days.  They were wasted.  But yet they weren't.  I had to get rejuvenated, I had to restock, regroup, what ever ya wanna call it.  I had to seriously do some thinking.... what has caused this, what can I do about it, and how should I handle it.  Sick, yes, I felt sick, though maybe not in the usual way.  But sick, nevertheless.  ILL. Outta-body weirdness, hearing things around me, but not really listening at all. Sitting and staring at the wall, or out into the marsh, or up at the sky.  Why?  Well, I say it was STRESS.  You say, Stress?  How on earth can that make ya feel those things?  Well wouldn't we all like to know.   I do know this...that everything we do, everything we experience, every interaction we have with our loved ones, our friends, and others..... affects us in many ways.  Of course most things affect our physical being, in one way or another, and that is usually visible. But do we really stop and think about how everything affects our nervous system?   Naaah... not really.   But why wouldn't it?  Our nervous system is a large portion of what makes up our bodies, and is a very, very important part of our make-up, although it can't be seen as the physical body can.  So therefore it makes it hard to see those things that cause us STRESS as affecting our nerves, but it all does affect all parts of our bodies. Our minds are very complex. Our hearts are tough, but they are tender as well.  STRESS can make us feel like hell.  

So where does STRESS come from?  I didn't Google it to see.. but maybe I will, later.... however, I am finding out it can come from many avenues,  anything... maybe a person, a place, or a thing, depending on the time or circumstance.  We don't really think about STRESS, because we are just going through Life, day by day, moment my moment, never stopping to think much about it.  'Til one day.... bam... you are down for the count.  You are out light a light.  You are good for nothing.  You are worn out, you are frazzled, you are torn and totally mixed up about why you are feeling this way.... No coughs, no sneezing, or wheezing... or fevers... (for me anyway) you just know you are not well......maybe you are feeling STRESSED.  Just as being sick in any other way, you have to take care of yourself, when sick with STRESS.  It feels a little weird, I must say, to just be in bed, (pretty much all day, or two...) because you don't feel like the kind of sick you would normally be to stay in bed, but you don't feel up to doing anything else.  Weak as water, not able to concentrate.  It is awful, it is insane that your nervous system could wreak so much havoc in this way that would just put you down.  But it can, and it did.  I am still having a tough time, wondering how to deal with it, how to help myself now get over this STRESS.  STRESS can also sometime be the precursor to Heart Attacks, as it was in the case of my sister's. Her doctor said it was.  I do not want to have a Heart Attack, oh no, I do not. (I am predisposed already from having them "in the family", but I need not add to that, to make my chances greater.)  

No one really thinks about hey.... I am getting STRESSED, not generally. It usually just kinda creeps up on ya, after being exposed to certain stimuli, over time and again......And you feel like Crap... you don't wanna get outta bed, you cannot think clearly, you want to cry but you can't.  STRESS is not our friend, in normal ways. (we all know there are times when a little stress is needed .... that is a different kind of stress, and not applicable here.)

Where does it, the bad-kind of STRESS come from and ..... I don't even think I can begin to talk about what causes that STRESS. Sometimes we do not know, we don't recognize anything different. Then other times, when we stop and think.... ahhhhh... yeah.... that was/is pretty stressful... maybe I need to rethink what I'm doing that may be causing this.  Many times it can start to grow from the circumstances of another, you take on their burdens, because you are concerned, you sometimes worry, and you care, and you share, then BOOM... it feels like their problems are yours, or you sympathize so much with a friend or loved one, and you feel their STRESS 'til it winds up on your back, in your heart, in your mind! Oh yeah.  This is where I'm at.  I cannot deal with that kind of STRESS any longer.  I have to back away.  I have to regain my inner peace somehow. I cannot live with this kind of STRESS, not and function to the best of my ability.  
Ok...  well, I am very sleepy.  I need to rest, and DE-STRESS.   Good night.  <3 ~me

Suthern Chics Nite Out.......

Hey there my gurls, 

you

Sweet Suthern Chics... 
y'all listen up,
my gurls
y'all heah?  

I don't even know what day it is...
don't know which a'way is up, 
or is it 
upside down? 
All I do know
gurls, 
y'all gotta help me gurls....  
we gotta turn my frown around!                                                                 

Some of us were Suthern Bound, the 

rest of us... we were Suthern Bred,

all I knows right now, is gurls...

we're a'headin' straight ahead...

maybe downtown gurls?  .. 

or elsewhere gurls...

 where'd

y'all like to go instead? 

Ok, now gurls

 what do you think ...

Should we rev up the

 Pink Cadillac..

 or

maybe the convertible, gurls, 

y'all know, that RED one... 

the one that sits

out back!

  

Whoa now... wait 

a minute y'all... 

I've got to 
Fix My 

Face...

calm down, gurls... 
wait up, 

we are fixing to, 

jes' hold on gurls... 
purdy soon we'll be a'leavin' this place.

Well, lawdy be, and la-de-da... 

Whooo hooo, and yahoo too...

This is what we Suthern gurls do,

 y'all know... 

when we's  a'feelin' blue.

Soooo.... let's put that top down, 
and  

tie your scarf right on, 

ya head.... 

if y'all don't wanna 

your coif's a'blowin'...

  betta

listen to me, I said... 

there'll be'a wind, 
sho' nuff, 

I know...
just up 

that road ahead!

Come on now gurls......

 let's go, 
you chics,  

 and Suthern gals,

 yes,

 each and all of you....

I said.... Come on y'all...

  Honey chil', and Darlin' heart, 
  come on gurls,
    now you two...

    but say 
      hey y'all.....
   have yas
     seen our friend,
       Miss Bobbie Sue?

At last, we Suthern chics, 

each one of us, and all...
oh yeah,
we are'a come'n boys... 

we gurls are a'headin' out,   

oh yeah, and oh yeah boy... 
yoooo hoooo ..... 

but wait.... 

oooohhhh noooo 

 hold up ..... 
  hold on ....
  back up...
     did we leave sweet 

       Betty Lou?  

Just a little bit about a "Little Bit"

I am married to the love of my life,
my high school sweetheart for 42 years.
He is the Best, and always was, 
through many and many (and many) a TEST. 
We've been together through the good times,
though many times of tears, 
oh Lord, what would I do without him, 
I shudder to think....with him I have no fears.
Together we have borne two daughters, 
named Dana and named Erin, 
the days they arrived, we truly felt a bit of Heaven.
Now, today...
I am NeNe and he is Papa, 
to the sweetest
of sweet Grandsons,
William Thomas,
and brother, 
Jacob Elliott Frasier..,
oh yes, the days that they arrived,  
we thought we surely 
had GONE to Heaven!.

 I love a sunrise or a beautiful sunset....
 the beach, the ocean waves, and the noise that the sea makes.
 I love the sounds of the bird's songs, or a cloudy afternoon. 
 I love a rainy day, chasing rainbows and full moons. 
 I like hand-holding, and hugs given with true warmth, 
 a soft touch, 
 or sitting by a fire upon a hearth.
 I am into some music, sometimes I like to dance, 
 I love how it feels to be in love and  
 I also like romance.
 I love little babies and the way they smell right after a bath, and
 I like to know that Life is full of many, varied paths. 

 I feel blessed beyond all measure, 
 and I'm very thankful to God,
 for I know without HIM, I might only be....sod?!? 
 I love the green grass, 
 and too, the crunchy Autumn leaves, 
 and the shadows that WE make
 when we are walking down a street.  

These things are only but a few,
 of the things, and the loves
 that make Me.. ME, 
 and
 helps make 
 me feel, 
 most times... 
  well....  just complete!  

Getting started... my first blog... July 31, 2013

Welll, y'all.... here I am~!  My very first line on my Blog.  I had a "time" trying to just find a name for this blog, seemed like all of the first things I came up with were taken. So then, I turned to a friend, who has pushed me (lovingly) to this point, and asked for some suggestions... SHE came up with the title I really liked, LAUGHTER, TEARS AND SUNSHINE! I think it fits for me, whatta ya think? As well, I feel it is very apropos, to have chosen this, since she IS the one who prompted me to do this blogging thing. (Thank you, Peggy!) Yes, throughout my life, there have been a few others who have always told me to WRITE! Even one or two who have said, "You could write a book!". (Thank you, Mary Jane!) Well, that is still a dream, but now I'm wondering... may be a possibility?  Well, let's just keep it simple now, as I try to write lines of what ever is coming out of my mind.... MAYBE SOME DAY.... a book?  Now THAT WOULD BE AWESOME!  Thank you to all of you, and I think you know who you are, for always telling me that I should WRITE!

I have been writing in some form or fashion, since I was "knee-high to a door knob".  I have bits of paper, here and there, and un-finished journals in this or that box, SOMEwhere.  I thought .... do I have to collect all of those, and start from THERE? Ohhh gosh, I would never have gotten to this point. So, my friend says..."just start from now", and write what you want... soooo here we go.  

I sometimes may write tooooo much, or maybe not enough (????) but always I will write from my heart. I hope that what I write may help someone else, in some way, and I also hope that what I write will never hurt anyone, in any way.  But I want you to know right here, right now... all I write just comes from my heart! It may come from my experiences or others, but I will always do my very best not to embarrass anyone, or hurt anyone, by my words.  That old saying, "Sticks and Stones may break my bones, but WORDS will never hurt me."... No way, NOT TRUE!  Words can and do hurt sometimes when said in the wrong way, at the wrong time, or maybe just taken in the wrong context.  It is not easy to write so that the other person can truly know your intent, completely, because they are reading the words as they would, not necessarily how you would want them to sound, so I gotta remember these things, so as not to hurt with my words.  That all being said, if anything you read that I write, does hurt, just write me a private note, and let me know, and we will work it out.  I will always try to protect the innocent, as they say, and try not to cause trouble or discord between others with my words! Now then, all THAT being said.... 

Please BEAR WITH ME.... although not real new at writing, I am certainly new with writing so that others can read what I write. I hope that sometimes you will be able to read between the lines, or understand maybe what I cannot put into words.  Writing is sometimes easy, sometimes not!  Sometimes I get to going, and my fingers get way ahead of my mind.  Whew!  Was I ever glad for the typewriter!  And now the COMPUTER!  I still love LONG-HAND writing, but my old fingers just can no longer hold out. This way I can write and erase and adjust and rewrite, and lo and behold hopefully when all is said and done (or written and erased and rewritten) it will show up here as I want it to!  

As you see by now.... I am a TALKER! ... even as I talk, I write.... LOTS or much!  haha... Maybe sometimes too much.... rarely not enough.  So if you get tired of all the blah, blah, blah... take a break and come back... please.  BEAR WITH ME... some days I may keep it short!  Whatever the case... here I am with my FIRST BLOG... feels kinda like I am writing a book. I can hear you now... "IT sure does! Will this first entry ever be finished?"

Ok, ok... for now I will stop. But only because I reeeally should get up and get dressed and do something else, I guess.  But I have a feeling my laptop and I are going to be even better friends now that I have this blog going. Poor laptop, I'll do my best to keep you coooool! Whew! But when the words flow they flow. Gotta write when it's HOT! (Alright, I will jot down notes and thoughts from time to time on paper and give you a break, Laptop!) 

Thanks to all of you have been patiently reading this. Know that your love and encouragement means more to me than I can ever say. But if you will, keep it coming, ok?  I will need it some days to keep this up. On those days, consider yourself HUGGED! TTFN = Ta Ta Ta For Now... you will be hearing alot of that too!  Blessings,  <3 ~me